damn.
wouldnt have thought that that could be a thing.
sounds painful on many levels.
their generally not confined to single intrusiveness. if you have one you have plenty and just choose to spoke of one which id guess you dont actually have but you do have OCD and dont want to talk about the facts of it so you went with a story that rhymes.
howd i do?
You would be wrong, it’s a true story, I just left out a few details.
I shave my head and have for 25 years, when I try to grow my hair out I play and twist it till my fingers go raw and my shoulders hurt, after I shave my head I move to my eyebrows so I shave them too, you can’t tell I shave my eyebrows because I only need to shave them short enough that I can’t twist them….I try to sit on my hands but no matter how hard I try I end up twisting my hair when I’m alone and not doing anything….To stop myself from playing with my pubic hair I can just wear a tight belt to keep me from putting my hands in my pants….Pubic hair is the least of my problems when it comes to hair twisting.
I’ve had other OC behaviors such as cleaning my ears with q tips multiple times a day or picking at scabs but I’ve improved greatly over the past 10 years on both of those……I also like to shower after I shit, its made life a little difficult at times but there’s nothing wrong with having a clean ass.
My therapist says I am a habitual liar and an attention seeker, therefore nothing I say/write is true and under no circumstances should I be believed nor held accountable for anything I say. all photo's are paintings
People are born with the instinct to fight against their own death, to struggle with their last breath against even the most unavoidable and uncompromising ends.
It is what it is, there’s a million worse conditions people can have. I get migraines, have anxiety and obesity and am thankful and try to enjoy each day of life I have and consider myself fortunate.
and a nearly frozen Torpedo sierra-nevada IPA.
I'm very serious about knowing for a fact each time,
seriously miss your meal workup posts munchy
lived for reading those updates
know enough to know that when you says nearly frozen here its not just idle verbage
youve got it dialed down to about the minutes
the sweet spot of how you like it
i love a super cold brew too
but ive never put in the time to push it to the limit
we are given opportunity to take a good look at ourselves
its then that we get to choose how to proceed
whether constructivist is to be the overarching determine or not...
ive long thought reprobabes i come across are absent of cognitive involvement when it comes to theses things opperating in the world their chief first person of.
think ive let that assumption go in the last hour,
think ive stepped a foot otherwise wasnt available to my thinking and hour ago
shit
this started couple 3 4 weeks ago
something troubled got a subset string of thinking into go and then prioritize.
more to say but not now. pease respond. want to work off and on top of other material.
please paste it
will help me make honest sense moving forward...
there was a time were I used to check if the door was locked all the time even though I locked it 1 min before, sometimes I used to get out of bed to check even though I checked before I went to bed, I don't do it anymore though....
cant recall any OCD's till they exploded into existance in 2019
but i do remember an early childhood moment
i remember thinking i could see these invisible lines coming off every corner in the room. everything has corners and they were all throwing these 'lines'
i imagined them on the floor and i wasnt supposed to step on them. when i did i had to reach down and 'pick' it off my shoe, then walk it back to the corner it originated from and put it back
i remember thinking 'if i keep worry about this im going to lose my mind"
i was 4 years old
and after thinking that i just stopped worrying about it
real OCD's arent solved quite so simply but i guess it was the power of a childs mind...
